I strongly disagree with your end result. Your end result is ‘you are still alive’ and you know now how to live with very basic needs of life and you have let gone of luxury. Only false blame on you teaches that you’re responsible for your own wrong doing, not others. Next time something if something goes wrong with you, you will be double careful to not accuse others even if others were wrong. You’ve learnt to walk on your own feet. You should have realized that any small achievement need very hard work, and you should not take credit of anyone else hard work.

My second sade sati yet to come, but I had one in my childhood when I was in class 4-5. I used to regularly forget doing my homeworks, brings books, got regular beating from teacher, falsely accused of writing abuses in boys toilet. A mental laziness continued. I had small panoti of 2.5hrs when Lord Saturn was in Sagittarius ( 8th house transit from moon). In my job at Bangalore, I was in my Bangalore office for 25days apporx, rest 340 days was traveling to customer ends, customer were unhappy with my work and demanded extra effort. I used to feel lonely sitting in 4 star hotel (ITC / Marriott / name it), eating buffet for breakfast and dinner. Got many close opportunity / temptation with other girls but never touched anyone as I had a clue of back firing. I had increased smoking cigarettes because it used to make me feel good and handle my lonliness, stopped it completely  after that phase ended. I used to walk blindly around street in the free time like 9-10pm listening to music, because only walking made me feel good.

My girlfriend, brother and close friend had just completed first phase of it. All three are in debts now, 2 of them are isolated and living alone. Keeping close eye on them, recommended then to read The Greatness Of Saturn: A Therapeutic Myth by Robert E. Svobod.  Encourage them to go for running everyday, work hard without expectation of appreciation.