Love/Marriage Issues

Hi,

my d.o.b is 23rd January 1989, 4:30 am Ludhiana.

I am not having success in any relationship and not being able to get married, I do not want an arrange marriage, but I am not having success in love either. I am not able to express feelings clearly when I like anyone. I developed feelings for someone in July 2020, the person also knows coz I have been very honest about my feelings.

I am already 33 years old and career is also not so good, I do not know what to do ?. I don’t know if this is some kind of karmic debt. I consulted good astrologers but, the dates that they gave passed already. Sometimes I feel like one of my aunt and her daughter has done something because unfortunately their son (my cousin) used to like me, that was long time ago when we were kids. I don’t like him or his family members because of the trauma that I had suffered for years.

I am wondering do I really have a yoga of marriage? I really love kids and can’t wait to have my own, but I am getting old. I don’t like or get involved in casual relationships or even dating. I just crave deep level soulful/spiritual connections.

any help would be appreciated ? ?